Lord Jesus,
Help me see that: You are joy. You are light. Your are warm. You are freedom. You are kind. You are king. You are love. You bring power. You are creator. You are beauty. You are caring. You know me. You are my prince. You fight for me. You are my savior. You deliver. You are holy. You are simple, but complex. You are vast. You have all power. You know all things, to the depths of my heart. You created me and formed me. You created all of man in your image. You are patient. You are humble. You don't grow bitter. You are grace and mercy. You are the perfect dad. You are the true heir. You work all things for good. You have defeated sin. Darkness cannot reign forever. You are the I AM.
You have planned all my days and all my nights. You are always by my side. Past, present, future. But for you, it's all the same moment. Your thoughts towards me outnumber the sand. Your blessings and gifts outnumber my cells. Even as a sinner, you came to rescue me.
You taught me how to live. You freed me from the web of guilt and death. I have been made new. I have your spirit indwelling in my flesh. The darkness still in my flesh hates You. It has fought Your spirit since You first made Your home in me. I desire evil because the fruit looks so good. My flesh desires recognition, victory, self-love, power, a great name, to be right, to succeed, to hoard my time and resources, to pick at the speck in others instead of the log in myself, to drown in self-pity, to take all and give nothing.
But You have taught me that true life is gained through the loss of self. Your spirit in me wants to give, doesn't seek recognition or power, doesn't care about being right, only wants to encourage others, to bless them with kind words, admits to the log before others have the chance, thinks of self less, and doesn't accumulate for self. Your spirit desires to produce love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control. Let it out strengthen my flesh. I want to be Your child and I want You to be my God.
Still sinning, yet redeemed,
Amy
